I stay lost

Hey..

At this precise moment, I should be doing my IT project work but instead I'm on the web apparently searching for pics. For my HW.

In my defense, that WAS what I was doing.. a while ago.

But Now, now I'm just wasting my time.. waiting for a video to buffer- House- to be precise!

I love that show, and now its almost an obsession

I swear my friends think I'm sprouting nonsense sometimes~

But then again, doesn't everyone? ;D

Anyway, I HATE my short attention span!

I was AM a straight A student and now I'm just trying to get above 60??

I can't concentrate in anything!

Its like I'm being taken over by a person who is crazy(ier than me), impulsive and wont sit still for 5 mins!

The worst part, I'm still the same on the outside. Quiet, shy, reserved... cold.

And that just Sucks.

I can neither be a complete go-getter nor the person I was!.. or at least the person I Believed I was..

This is so frustrating!

And the fact that finals are just a month away does not help!!

Okay.. Breathe..

You know, people say that when u realize that you are doing something wrong

half the problem is solved..

Well maybe so

But the part thats left over is a lot harder.

Because now, you have to decide HOW to correct your mistake

And Lord knows how hard that is!

They don't even make the HOW-TO-SOLVE-PROBLEMS-IN-(REAL)LIFE videos!

Anyway, I'm probably overreacting.. I'm hoping I am

Because I suck at handling stress.

... I suck at being who I want to be.

Omg

Its so nice to be Back and Blogging! :)

All these days spent away from blogging were filled with Drama..Insecurities..Heartbreaks..And the Usual~

But its also resulted in a major change of not only perspective but even my personality..

I couldn't be happier! :D

Which is exactly how I have been feeling since the past month.

Maybe its the fact that holidays are here, or that I finally know what it feels like to just be content..

To be confident and believe in yourself, even after others give up

Because let's face it, in the end I decide my own life.

:)

And to have finally sorted out my love lifee ;D

A girl can benefit from having a guy on her arm any day!

And!

Maybe because I had the best Christmas in Years!! :D

With 2 fudge log cakes (I dont even like sweet :P)

One smack-a-licious roasted chicken

And loads of junk food!

Oh!

And the gifts. Awesomeness.

Haha, I know I sound totally like a 13year old at a meet n greet.

But I'm happy, so there!

C'est la vie~

In Life,

Its always difficult to know who are FRIENDS and who are ENEMIES and who are FRENEMIES..

Lets start with Friends.

They know us. They support us. They love us. They trust you and you trust them.

They are extremely rare.. no matter what those damned emails tell you!

So if you find one, I suggest you grip her/him as hard as you possibly can! And Never let go...

And I doubt, I have any real ones left. Depressing. Wtv.

I'm antisocial anyway~ ;D

*woot woot*

And then there are Enemies.

They know us. Somehow still managed to hate us (go figure!).

But they're still an important part of our lives. Especially Teenage Years.

But I wouldn't really know... Cuz I never really had any actual Enemies. Or friends for that matter of fact.

Again guess who doesn't care?

:D

AND THEN THERE ARE FRENEMIES!

The most Interesting and Commonly populated among our species.

Available everywhere... In plenty... Sigh.

They sorta know you... They know how to use you... They are the sweetest beings on earth when they need a favor... They are cleverly manipulative... And somehow, they end up being your best friend. Fail.

x)

Mais, C'est la vie~ ;)

And I love it! Cuz, it helps me realize who I really am... :)

On the journey.. With a mission..

With Love...

Me :)

So it Begins here~

HI :)

So... Most probably no one will ever see this little treasure right here! My blog :D

Anyway, have to start somewhere, so Here goes-

I am Shaia(not my real name for reasons of confidentiality) ;D

I am in High School(unfortunately! Nightmare of a place this is! But more of that later on)

I'm a Virgo(Zodiac Sign) and proud to be one~

The reason I started the blog was because I needed somewhere to write! And what better place, than cyberspace :D *woot woot* I rhyme! ^_^

This idea of a blog has been on my mind since forever but you know what they say, New things Scare People (I have no idea if they actually say that. lol)

Anyway, Oh and I use the word Anyway a lot. I just love this word! Its such a beautiful filler and convo stopper(again unfortunately)

..... I guess you have already realized by now that, *sigh* I am very fickle minded. This idea of a blog itself has been such a To Do or Not To Do deal. (Yes, I love Shakespeare)

But, I have visited my fair share of blogs! And follow a few too. Its amazing how much closure one can find...

Just last week I was, well, to put it nicely, really down(majorly depressed). And then, I come across this one blog. Blew. My. Mind.

It was like this person was going through the exact same thing as me... I must have read all the posts like..(this is slightly embarrassing).. uh.. 6-7 times. But I have a valid reason! :P

This person had similar, if not exactly the same thoughts as me.

Amazed? I think so.

But after checking out her profile, I realized she was a Virgo- which in my mind is clearly very self-explanatory :) Because I really believe in Zodiac signs... well not COMPLETELY but enough to check out a new guy's compatibility with moi! (me in French)

(That's another of my obsessions! French: Language of Love!)

So this would be my First post on MY blog.

Not a lot to go on I admit, but once I start I am an invincible force!

(sheesh, THAT sounded lame enough..)

Anyway,
Ta-Ta for now~

With Love n Luck,
~Shaia~